What am I doing?

I have these 2 little black sponges on my earphone which goes missing very often. And every time that happens, I feel sad and disappointed, I kind of associate it with a bad omen, like I'm going to miss an opportunity, or something is still missing in my life.

The first time one of them went missing was when I was doing my internship. I remembered I had to decide on something, and when it went missing I had doubts about my initial decision. Then on a very, very normal day, I found the missing one sitting on the office floor! Perhaps out of desperate measures or lack of divine guidance, I took it as a sign from the higher powers.

Recently I thought I lost it again... I searched through my bag, everywhere, retraced my steps in school, but I just couldn't find it. But yesterday, it caught me by surprise again... It was trapped in my jacket, in my bag!

Dear higher power, are you trying to tell me anything? I am still lost.... sigh.