The difference between boys and girls

My email to my bro in US:

Hey mr nonchalant,

How did you do? I am stuck with the magical figure 4.38. AGAIN. Haha. And its final - i will be graduating with a second upper. Even if i get 5 next sem.

Anyway, the kiddos are over here at our place tonight. Xuan mildly refused to use your blanket, cos she said it smells. Now that I have an independent witness, what can you say? :P

Hear from you soon ya. Tell me about US. Supply some pictures too! I think ma and pa misses you. :)

Love,
Dia

My bro's email to me:

Dia and Nette,

Pls note that my Seattle number is 2xx xx1 xxxx.

1. Let Papa and Mama know this number
2. Let me know which day and time they wan to try the webcam live chat
3. I am not using my starhub line anymore cos I dun have an extra phone (doesn't matter cos u can still call me thru my Seattle number)
4. Maybe Papa and suspend my starhub number until I get back (saves abt $25/month)
5. Call this number only when it is an urgent or important. (It costs 1 USD for me and 10c/min but cost you guys more! Can always talk online)
6. I have set up my Bank of America account. Will let you all know how to wire money to me when I confirm it

Thats all! Thanks!

Take care!
your Kor

Back in sunny spore

I'm back home from HK.. which was nice, I liked the weather and the shopping! Over there you can wear the long socks and dress up pretty with a lot of layering.. But the downside is that the air is rather dry and dirty (it hasn't rained for the last 3 months).

Hm, I was looking through some old cards, and that got me thinking a lot. Again. Sigh. Nevertheless, I am determined to stay happy, happiness takes effort, and I am going to try hard.

I hope all the hearts that were broken will mend this jolly season, and those who have been breaking hearts will find their true loves.

Merry X'mas everyone! :)

Choke

So I went running, I wanted to get things out of my system.

But it didn't seem to work. I was reminded of the little things.

How could it be?
It's been so long.

These days, I am half-hearted in the things I do, I am distracted, I am unsatisfied.

I need something new. I need a new me. I want a new me.
And you need to go. I need to let go.

sunset glow

Once in a while, I stop and think.

It could be when I am making my way to the station, or when I am in the midst of reading a sentence on my textbook.

I don't know how to pick up the pieces. I think we are trying, I know you're trying. But it doesn't feel the same.. Is it me? Sometimes I think so. But I don't know how to go back..

I also think about B sometimes, just to reassess my own feelings.

I think it is half truth when they say that even when love is not reciprocated, its value is to inspire you. The inspiration spurs you on for a short while, but after that, the light dims and it is dark again.

I guess this is why you keep falling in (and out of) love.. Never mind the occasional darkness, walk on still, as there will soon be light.

Oh, where were you?

... and Henry leans over and carefully embraces me. I feel his stubble against my cheek and I am rubbed raw, not on my skin but deep in me, a wound opens and Henry's face is wet but with whose tears?

Excerpt from:
The Time Traveler's Wife

I am taking a break from accounting hell. Read: Advanced Financial Accounting

I just wanted to share this website:

http://waiterrant.net/

It is extremely entertaining.

And HEROES IS SO GOOD. Somehow, I always find the time to watch plenty of shows during exam period.

Haha.

Guilt

In case you don't know, I do feel bad.

I really appreciate the things you do...

How do I find the words...

In 2 months time

Mr Nonchalant is going to Seattle.

I'm very very jealous.

But I'm going to miss him! :'(

Why is it that everyone is leaving me..... I wanna go too........

Kinda sad. :/

3.22 am

This is bad.

I seem to have contracted Justin's disease of fainting on the bed early in the night!!!!!!

My essay is not done yet....... Oh nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Show me

That you can!!

Take each step of the climb,
one at a time.

Don't give up yet!

Gossip girl season 2

is.....

SO NICE!

And......

I have done absolutely nothing for the large part of my weekend!

And..... I totally love the scene with these lines:

C: What else is there?
B: The true reason I should stay right where I am and not get into the car..
Three words and eight letters..
Say it, and I'm yours..

But the end of summer is the beginning of the new season, so we find ourselves looking to the future.

:)

A typical day in the life of a 3rd year student

encompasses appearing "Busy" on msn at 2am in the morning..

going for a lot of networking sessions (and getting fat along the way, so now you know why your clothes don't fit)

and blogging at 2.19am in the morning.

Honestly..

I am depressed.

Yes. I am.

I want happy pills. I don't mind dying happy. In fact, that's my goal in life.

This goes down in my Top 5 Worst Moments in Uni

Inability to secure a company, when the deadline is near.

Most companies are unwilling to help, so it just goes to show how important it is to have contacts.

On the flip side, I am very touched by Daddy and kor kor. Like very, very touched. So much so that I feel like bawling my eyes out.

My buddies were being very encouraging too.. Its a good feeling to know that people care..

This emotional roller coaster ride is bad for health.

Heck.

Its about time for a good hearty cry anyway.

Me myself and I

I don't want to hear anything that is negative.

I don't want to hear that I am crazy.

I do not know if I will get INSTEP.

But I know that at least I've tried.

I know it is hard, but I will do my best. Jiayou, dia! : )

It is a Thursday

I am supposed to be preparing for my 230 tutorial, but since there are more than 20 discussion questions, and I won't be able to prepare in time, I've decided to blog instead.

There is something very wrong with me.

I am in a constant sian mood.

And the worst thing?

I can't figure out why.

Youll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
Youll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

11:44

I feel like shit.

That's all I came up with for 8 whole minutes. But I guess it sums up pretty nicely.

Sigh

I just realise that, even if I get a 5.0 this semester, my cgpa will be 4.49.

Wth.

>.<

Forever - Carole King

Now and Forever
You were a part of me
And the memory cuts like a knife
Didn't we find the ecstasy
Didn't we share the daylight
When you walked into my life
Now and forever I will remember
All the promises still unbroken
And think about all the words between us
The never needed to be spoken

We had a moment
Just one moment
That will last beyond a dream, beyond a lifetime
We are the lucky ones
Some people never get to do
All we got to do
Now and forever
I will always think of you

Didn't we come together
Didn't we live together
Didn't we cry together
Didn't we play together
Didn't we love together
And together we lit up the world

I miss the tears
I miss the laughter
I miss the day we met and all that followed after
Sometimes I wish I could always be with you
The way we used to do
Now and forever
I will always think of you
Now and forever
I will always be with you

Just being sentimental. :)

Time for a breather

It's been a crazy summer, with me busying with my internship, an overseas engagement, and then hall camp.

I just came home from my hall bash, its been tiring, cos I've only had around 2 hrs of sleep yesterday, so I shall make this entry short (and random, since my mind is not really organised now).

From the conversation with Zac today, I think I very well may try for exchange again. It is probably going to be one of my toughest sems, taking the killer modules, and working through the semester without Shing, Manda and Zac.. I am apprehensive, but still hopeful. First class honours! :)

Hall camp never felt quite the same, most of the time, I find myself thinking of the past, picturing the wide-eyed freshman I was two years ago. I still feel lucky to have my great buddies around me, the people who were freshmen like me once upon a time, and I am very grateful for the friendship that has blossomed along the way.

Dia must remember to cherish her last year! I've always said that cherish is such a difficult word to define, and even more difficult to put into action.

In any case, I've enjoyed myself these days, even though most of the time I was with the seniors. It was.. I would say, very special to me.

I told you it would be random and disorganised. :) Bed time now.

Guangzhou's air is so bad

THAT I GOT SICK.

>.<

And its only my 4th day here. I have not done any serious damage to my RMB. At all. I need to get well by Friday so I can go shopping.

Dear body, please jiayou and get well soon. Why are you getting sick when you eat such good stuff here. Sigh.

Current state:
Aching body, floating mind, strengthless limbs

Have to finish this night audit check before 小老板 comes back.

Dangerous mood

Yes, because it does NOT feel good to see your neat bed all messed up, after a day at work.

Because there is last minute work to be done.

Because I am tired.

Because... just because...

Restless

Tired, but I won't sleep.

Hurting, but I can't mend.

Young, but never younger.

Dreaming, but it is all lost time.

3 am

She could not concentrate on her work, there were too many thoughts running wild. Giving up, she picked up her phone and ear plugs. "A walk would do me good," she thought. She made her way down the stairs, and the metal gate made a metallic thud after her exit.

His train of thoughts was disrupted by the sound of the metal gate. "Who will be going out at such an unearthly hour?" Setting aside his notes, he stared out of the window, and saw her.

He knew her. Sharing a common friend, they knew each other briefly in their early university years. She was beautiful, but not pretty. It was a quiet kind of beauty, with a certain charm.

She always noticed him around, but talking to him was difficult. When she first knew him, he was forthcoming with words, but the words were always empty, devoid of meaning. He was not willing to share, and had built an invisible wall around him.

Intrigued by her late night escapade, he decided to follow her. "It is too dangerous for a girl at this time anyway, and I'll just watch her for a while," he said to himself.

He left the room quietly and followed her.

It was a chilly night, the sky was pale, with stars scattered across the sky. Her small hands were tucked inside her jacket, and her hoodie pulled over her head. Taking small and light steps, she seemed to be enjoying the breeze and the music.

He noticed the occasional heaving of the shoulders, as if she was sighing. Was she?

As if sensing his thoughts, she turned.

She was surprised to see him. Unplugging her ear plugs, she walked towards him.

"Do you happen to like late walks, or were you following me?" she joked.

Running his hand through his hair, he answered nonchalantly, "I was curious."

An awkward silence hung on the air like a veil, then suddenly it dispersed as both of them laughed.

"Let's walk together," he said.

As they walked, their voices were lost into the night, their footsteps taking them away from the world momentarily left behind.

3 am in the morning, they looked perfect together.

"Will he be happy?"

"Yes," she lied.

I'm crazy? Or?

Dia is thinking of learning something new now, but is feeling apprehensive, because she is not quite sure of how far she can go with this...

Dia's mom thinks shes crazy.........

I dunno..

Korean food

Just last week, my manager brought us out for a treat (on big boss's tab). I would say I liked the food, and was eating heartily... Quite embarrassed to admit it, but I wasn't really full. Haha!!

Here are the pictures:






I liked the kimchi steamboat. The soup base is really tasty, but I find the crab meat and mussels overcooked.

Anyhow, I'm feeling a bit sian. Boo.....

A sentimental note

David Cook - Always Be My Baby

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby



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I am in love with this song. Always had a thing for emo soft rock. =P

Norwegian Wood

A very interesting, but somewhat disturbing book for me.

I'm going to put down some verses that I really like.

==

There were sides to Nagasawa's personality that conflicted in the extreme. Even I would be moved by his kindness at times, but he could just as well be malicious and cruel. He was both a spirit of amazing loftiness and an irredeemable man of the gutter. He could charge forward, the optimistic leader, even as his heart writhed in a swamp of loneliness. I saw these paradoxical qualities of his from the start, and I could never understand why they weren't just as obvious to everyone else. He lived in his own special hell.

==

I wasn't sure, I said, but I hadn't heard anything special about it. This seemed to disappoint him. He gave every sign of wanting to continue our conversation, but I told him I had to catch a bus and started walking in the direction of the road. Patches of fog remained floating on the path where it skirted the stream, but the breeze carried them over to steep flanks of a nearby fountain. Every now and then as I walked along I would stop, turn, and heave a deep sigh for no particular reason. I felt as though I had arrived on a planet where the gravity was a little different. Yes, of course, I told myself, feeling sad: I was in the outside world now.

==

I miss you terribly sometimes, but in general I go on living with all the energy I can muster. Just as you take care of the birds and the fields every morning, every morning I wind up my own spring. I give it some 36 good twists by the time I've got up, brush my teeth, shaved, eaten breakfast, changed my clothes, left the dorm, and arrived at the university. I tell myself, "OK, let's make this day another good one." I hadn't noticed before, but they tell me I talk to myself a lot these days. Probably mumbling to myself while i wind up my spring.

==

I have always loved Nakao, and I still love her. But there is always a decisive finality to what exists between Midori and me. It has an irresistible power that is bound to sweep me into the future. What I feel for Naoko is a tremendously quiet and gentle and transparent love, but what I feel for Midori is a wholly different emotion. It stands and walks on its own, to the roots of my bring. I don't know what to do. I'm confused. I'm not trying to make excuses for myself, but I do believe that I have lived as sincerely as I know how. I have never lied to anyone, and I have taken care over the years not to hurt other people. And yet I find myself tossed into this labyrinth. How can this be? I can't explain it. I don't know what I should do. Can you tell me, Reiko? You're the only I can turn to for advice.

==

Things like that happen all the time in this great big world of ours. It's like taking a boat out on a beautiful lake on a beautiful day and thinking both the sky and the lake are beautiful. So stop eating yourself up. Things will go where they're supposed to go if you just let them take their natural course. Despite your best efforts, people are going to be hurt when it's time for them to be hurt. Life is like that. I know I sound like I'm preaching from a pulpit, but it's about time you learned to live like this. You try too hard to make life fit your way of doing things.

==

The memories would slam against me like the waves of an incoming tide, sweeping my body along to some strange place - a place where I lived with the dead. There Naoko lived, and I could speak with her and hold her in my arms. Death in that place was not a decisive element that brought life to an end. There Naoko lived with death inside her. And to me she said, "Don't worry, it's only death. Don't let it bother you."

I felt no sadness in that strange place. Death was death, and Naoko was Naoko. "What's the problem?" she asked me with a bashful smile, I'm here, aren't I?" Her familiar little gestures soothed my heart like a healing balm. "If this is death," I thought to myself, "then death is not so bad." "It's true," said Naoko, "death is nothing much. It's just death. Things are so easy for me here." Naoko spoke to me in the spaces between the crashing of the dark waves.

==

Once upon a time, you dragged a part of me into the world of the dead, and now Naoko has dragged another part of me into that world. Sometimes I feel like the caretaker of a museum - a huge, empty museum where no one ever comes, and I'm watching over it for no one but myself."

Haruki Murakami,
Norwegian Wood

Make a wish.. make a wish..

Dear Santa,

I know this is a little premature, but I have been a good girl this year. I know you have been very kind, by granting me my driving license as well as removing my braces. However, can I be a little more greedy and ask for something more?

You see, recently, I have been addicted to this sport which involves a lot of imagination, physics and creative poses. It is totally rocking, because with every ball I sink in, a little rainbow butterfly flutters in my heart.

I really like to see the white breeze through the greens, and contact the other balls in an intimate and playful way. The sound of the bumping is such a magical note!

Therefore, I would like to wish for a 5 by 7 pool table, a personalised cue and funky pool balls. While you are at it, can you sprinkle magical dust on me so I can finally learn how to break?

Thank you, Santa. I know you are always supportive of healthy hobbies, and therefore, I impatiently await your gift.

Love,
Dia

Pool madness

4 hours of real pool

+

2.5 hours of cyber pool

=

FUN DAY!!!

: )

Your song

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

Unsettling

Dia is a complicated person.

Within a heart, there are conflicts.
Within a sentence, so many hidden meanings.

Hai...

Troy

I am finally done with reading the Fall of Kings.

This book wasn't the best of the three, I found it a little too depressing. The entire story was bleak, with the inevitable fall of Troy, along with my heroes. Then there was the cliched line, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery," which I did not like at all.

But in any case, I liked the series and with every book I read, I draw inspiration from the characters the author paint.

The men, to name a few;
Helikaon, the Golden One
Hektor, the bravest of Troy
Banokles
Augurios
Kalliades

The women;
Andromache
Kalliope
Helen
Kassandra

When I read, emotions rise in me, and now and then, I feel touched and motivated by the heroes. They are fiction, but they are very, very human. All of them are flawed, with their own weakness and demons, but they all rise up to their fate and face their fears in the eye.

Life today brings challenges that are different in form, but in substance, they are the same. Fear is the same feeling of hopelessness, where you know you are fighting a lone battle which you may lose. But courage will always be present, alongside fear, and sometimes, what you need is discipline to surmount the fear, and most of all, hope.

Like the heroes, I want to be able to laugh off the weariness and demons.

Dia is on her way to become a better person!! : )

I have to get this out of my system

I actually did the notes on liabilities and the WHOLE freaking answer was written by ME ME ME.

And I did not put it down. Isn't it as easy as.....

For free transportation – liability = incremental cost

• TIMING is an issue.

Recognise when:

- there is sufficient mileage? OR

- when mileage is accumulated?

If recognise when there is sufficient mileage, that means you assume no liability exists until customer is entitled to a free award

If recognise when mileage is accumulated, that means you view that it is very likely that many customers will accumulate the necessary mileage, so the accumulation of mileage is the obligating event. Hence, you use deferred revenue method, recognise liability for free travel when the original transportation is provided.

• MEASUREMENT is an issue.

Is it:

- Amount of assets consumed in providing free transportation? OR

- Forgone revenue from displacing a paying customer due to free ticket?

Airline industry says that there are restrictions on these free travel awards, so the second option is not relevant. If you choose second option, will, significantly overstate probable future sacrifices.

AcSEC allows both incremental cost and deferred revenue method. Samuelson recommends incremental cost.

There. My. Full. Marks.

Dia is very angry with herself, and she knows it is stupid to think about 201 when she has 213.

Hai. Ok. At least I got it out. Nevermind..........................................

a sucker for good byes

Dia is a sucker for good byes.

Kendra is leaving today, previously it was Christine.

And come May onwards, dia has to send her friends off one by one.

Sirong, then Shing and Zac, then Bee and Amanda.

Sigh, gonna be so lonely.

Time really flies, and sometimes, memories are not enough. Memories doesn't give you laughter, joy and companionship. Sometimes, they leave you feeling emptier that ever......

Thursday, April 08, 2004

That date was special, because I was named "some fuckhead frm ASS, malnourished shits. like those juz come frm africa one," among others. It's really funny and interesting reading the older posts from the person who gave me that nick.

The story (from my POV which could be biased) is about girl A who used to like Guy B. Then Guy B got to know girl C. So girl A got jealous, afterall, girl C is from a neighbourhood school -so dumb/ah lian/chinese.

Those who know me - yes, I am girl C. I admit that ASS (the more affectionate name) does have the above attributes mentioned, but hell, I loved my secondary school life.

For those who want to know more, ask me.

Anyway this post is random, and I'd better get back to studying for my exams.

Bye bye metal, hello plastic

Yes.

It is finally off now. Unfortunately, my excitement has died off after:

1) Staring at myself like an idiot in the mirror for 10 minutes

2) Feeling queasy in my stomach from the plastic n my mouth

I have not started studying since yesterday so TIME TO START!

; )

I know its time to sleep

But I am feeling quite sucky now. So I shall blog!

My grumbles:

1. This morning I needed a black cardigan for presentation, and I was desperate so I called one of my friends to borrow it. I think she must be really mad, cos she said "I wanna kill you..." I was kinda shocked, but really its my fault for not bringing my own. So, I kinda deserve it. I bought chocs for her cos I felt guilty.

But anyway, I guess what I wanna say is that it doesnt feel that good to be scolded..at 8 in the morn. But I know I'd sure wont feel good if I was woken up at 8 and I dont have any lessons.

2. 214 report. I mean, why do we need to submit it for class participation marks? WHY?!!

3. The weather is too warm. Really.

4. I can't study with my hall mates, because I feel stressed when I'm with them. I know that's silly, but when people are studying for their 2nd or 3rd paper, and you have not STARTED on your first, its intimidating.

4. It's 1.38 am and I have 6 hours to rest my tortured and tired soul.

Good bye world, good bye sanity.

In order to get a first class honours...

Dia needs to get all As this sem. Which. Means. GPA. 5.

WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHA

I am 2 weeks away from my first paper

And. I have not studied.... And I don't really feel like, because everyday I feel so worn out, grumpy and sometimes I really feel like giving up.

But I remember that it is always easier to give up than to keep going, but there's no guarantee that the easy way through life is the best way.

I also remember that life is precious and I only have one life to live, one life to chase my dreams before I die and leave this world.

SOOO.. Just to cheer myself up,I shall put a quote here, one that Zac prepared for Shing and which I shamelessly ripped from:

Happiness keeps you sweet,
Trials keep you strong,
Sorrow keeps you human,
Failure keeps you humble, success keeps you glowing...
But only faith and attitude keeps you going...

And of course, there is always my family and friends who keep me going when I feel like giving up.....

JIAYOU, DIA!!!

My internship

Today, I went down to sign some papers and I had a chance to talk to my supervisor and the HR personnel.

They said I may start as soon as early early May, and from what I hear, there is a chance that my first time meeting with my fellow colleagues will be in the airport. But of course, its not confirmed yet. I may or may not get to go so soon/at all.

I am looking forward to the internship, I hope I will fare well during my time there.

A random point, but I think I would really like to do away with the sugar free mints. This is because my friend says its causing:

Dr Impairment loss on brain cells (for me)
Cr Intelligence

Then another smart aleck said:

Nono, intelligence is a liability for D. And another said that the mint should be a contra asset account.

Well I really don't know, but I think I can just write off the impaired brain cells. You know, our brain cells do reproduce and regenerate right? As long as growth is normal and not cancerous, I will be fine.

In anycase, I am parting with $3.30. Does anyone think their Intelligence is high? I can offer you, FOC. :)

Oh and silly bro. Cos you went back on your word, YOU HAVE TO HELP ME BRING MY BOOKS BACK! Its heavy can?? But then that's cos I am lagging in all my cores..... Sigh.. My weekend is so burnt..... *grumbles*


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I forsee the jokes that I will be saying when I go to work.............
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I know this is lame but I just had to do it...

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Gratitude

I realise now that when people say you shouldn't judge too soon, they are right.
A lot of times, I forget to look at the bigger picture and evaluate myself before I judge. There is outward attribution as all I do is to defend my self-centred self.

I've seen the kindness in Mr Soon, how he always tries his best to make me learn. Even though he scolds and gets irritated by me, I know he is doing it for my own good. It is heartwarming when he asks questions about whether I have eaten or not when he calls to remind me of our next lesson. I like it when we talk in the car, mainly about school, and I actually like to listen to his grandfather tales about the older Singapore.

I really disliked going for classes during the last few times when I was preparing for my first driving test, as he was very strict and said many awful things. After failing the test, I know that the problem is really with ME. I am not sure of what I am doing most of the time; it is good that I get it right, and just too bad when I don't.

I still do that now, and I really find it hard to remember roads. I am really inept at these kind of things. I am bad at estimation, siam-ing taxi uncles who pull stunts, reading traffic lights and so much more.

Therefore the point of this post is... Dia, its ok if you fail. Just DONT commit the same mistakes you did, at least do that much.

And of course, the other point is... Driving is just a small part of your life. There is so much more to it.

So even if you dislike losing, failure is fine and don't beat yourself up too much about it.

Now.. its time to study for the quizzes.... Jan im starving, and this place is freezing me.. so come soon...

Yr 2 Sem 2

I just want to say that..... I CANT BELIEVE MY ONE WEEK BREAK IS OVER!!!

I have been working hard, but I have not had anytime to revise/catch up with my work. (only like 2 days of the hols for slacking) Lets see, I have 202 case presentation on Mon, 213 report due on Wed, 201 research the next week, and all my quizzes either next week or the following week..

Isn't that great? And not to mention exams are 7 weeks from now. Hello?? How can that be??!! In the 7 weeks, I still have 2 more parts of my 213 report, 202 group presentation, 248 report + presentation, 201 report submission.

Dia, think positive positive.

At least I hope there is something to look forward to after the hols.....
Dear NTU, why won't you let me go for INSTEP?? Sigh.....

A mental note

Someone does not treat you right, so you feel hurt and angry because you do not deserve this. Because you cannot help it, not matter how hard you try.

So?

Continue feeling sorry for yourself?

No. Suck it up and move on. Because the world is not ideal. Because the world is filled with people who do not practise what they preach. Because the world is hypocritical, whether you like it or not. Because we all have preferences.

Because not everyone lives up to your standards.

So the morale of the story is:

No matter how bad you feel, there are going to be people who screw up your life once in a while. And going to the end of the universe of feeling bad isn't going to change it.

Therefore, what I am going to do is, to give you a bloody good evaluation.
Then again, that may be vengeful on my part, no?
But I'll still do it, for the benefit of the later batches. No this is not about altruism. It is about putting some people back into their place and learning to be FAIR. That's the least you can do.

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I know what priorities are, and I know what yours are.

I sit awake
Does an angel, contemplate my fate
Do they know the places where we go
When we're grey and old

Cos I've been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when im lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
and I feel like love is dead

I'm loving angels instead