Someone once told me That you have to choose What you win or lose You can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances You might feel the pain Don’t you love in vain Cause love wont set you free
I could stand by the side And watch this life pass me by So unhappy but safe as could be
So what if it hurts me So what if I break down So what if this world just throws me off the edge My feet run out of ground I gotta find my place I wanna hear my sound Don’t care about other pain in front of me Cause I’m just tryna be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah
Holding on tightly Just can’t let it go Just tryna play my role Slowly disappear, oooh
Well all these tears They feel like they’re the same Just different faces, different names Get me outta here
Well I can stand by the side And watch this life pass me by Pass me by
So what if it hurts me So what if i break down So what if this world just throws me off the edge My feet run out of ground I gotta find my place I wanna hear my sound Don’t care about other pain in front of me Cause I’m just tryna be happy
Just wanna be happy Oooh… So any turns that i cant see I'll count a stranger on this road But don’t say victim Don’t say anything
So what if it hurts me So what if i break down So what if this world just throws me off the edge My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place I wanna hear my sound Don’t care about all the pain in front of me Cause I’m just try to be happy
I think our breakup was about timing more than anything else. We were too young.
We weren't that young.
Young enough. I wasn't ready for...this, he says, motioning in the space between us, finally admitting the obvious-that it was him, not me. He broke up with me.
I nod, as if I understand his assessment, even though I really don't. Yes, we were young, but in some ways, young love seems the most robust and idealistic, untarnished by everyday hardships. Leo threw inthe towel before we were ever really tested. Maybe because he didn't want to be tested. Maybe because he assumed we would fail. Maybe because, at the time, he just didn't love me enough.
It's not about what might have been. And it's not about whether I have genuine feelings for Leo now, underneath the layers of nostalgia, lust, unrequited love. It's really not about Leo at all.
Sometimes there are no happy endings. No matter what, I'll be losing something, someone. But maybe that's what it all comes down to. Love, not a surge of passion, but as a choice to commit to something, someone, no matter what obstacles or temptations stand in the way. And maybe making that choice, again and again, day in and day out year after year, says more about love than never having a choice to make at all.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are. Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
It feels like school. Maybe I should just catch up with ONE of my shows right?? :)
Anyway, just a short update:
Work: I've started work officially, its tiring.... Waking up early and reaching home at 8/9 plus.. I can totally foresee later working hours, BUT I am determined to have work life balance, so I am going to push myself a little harder during work hours..
For now, I'm still learning, guess my portfolio is quite alright, I have a mix of companies from different industries, and a few big corporations..
Will be going to Msia for a department trip and another one for a client.. Hope it will be good!!
I miss school sometimes, but it does feel good to earn my own keep (well technically not yet since I haven't got my first pay yet)..
Other than work: Apart from being totally engulfed in work life, I've been trying to read, spend time with my loved ones, catch up on some of my favourite shows, exercise...
Sadly, I've only been able to do a little of the above mentioned, so there's much room for improvement.
Ok I'm kinda uninspired now, don't even feel like checking whatever I've typed for any grammar errors, don't even want to make an effort to make this post interesting.. :P
To everyone reading this, hope you all are doing well! And let's meet up soon yeah? ;)
"Someone once told me that, the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn't happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people, rather than less."
I always: -like to travel -like to read -like cookies and cream -like to feel loved -like to think that im funny -wish I were fatter -like a nice hug -wish I had perfect eyesight -love talking to old friends
I sometimes: -wish I never read those romance novels -wish it wasn’t so close to heart -wish I could make everything better -wish for a little snow -wish I were in an entirely different place
I never: -like quarrels -like feeling alone -want to grow old - liked never
About one more month before I officially start work.... I hope for many things, and I am hopeful... hopefully :)
Its twelve o clock and I need your attention Its like the alcohol making my head spin Send me the one the room is a bottle Keeping me hopeless til I wake tomorrow
And if tonight ever makes a difference The way that I feel the way that Ill remember it Ill take this down until the glass remains Swallow the words that I was meant to say
Its a long drive back to Vegas skies So I dont, I make one more wrong turn tonight so
Say goodnight our first goodbye Ive only got forever and forever is fine Just take your time Well stop the clock together And know that the timing was right
All of these guards they stand tall and defensive Putting up walls around what was once innocent It wont let me in but Im stronger than that Cuz you stole my eyes and Ill never look back
Girl last night I forgot to mention The way that I feel the way that Ill remember this When were this young we have nothing to lose it is just a clock to beat and a hand to choose
Its a long drive back to Vegas skies So I dont, I make one more wrong turn tonight so
Say goodnight our first goodbye Ive only got forever and forever is fine Just take your time Well stop the clock together And know that the timing was right
Its a long way down Just fall into place and youll fall into me Well make it out youll see
So say goodnight our first goodbye Ive only got forever and forever is fine Just take your time Well stop the clock together
And say goodnight our first goodbye Ive only got forever and forever is fine Just take your time Well stop the clock together And know that the timing was right
Today at 245 am in the morning, I woke up to find myself crying.
And I remember the dream, because I decided to write it down, knowing that I would forget when morning comes.
So here it goes..
It was a meeting with people I don't know. They were all G's friends. The seating arrangement is as such:
Don't ask me why. I have no idea.. Haha.. Anyway the next scene was one where we were rushed into a hospital. I think something in the food stopped both G and my heart.
We had puffy faces and the docs were trying to revive both of us. All this time I was aware of what is happening, probably because I was already dead. The doc managed to revive G but not me.
On the way out of the hospital door (as a spirit), I saw Ex standing at the corridor. Somehow, she could see me, and I said, "Take care of G." She nodded in reply.
I carried on walking and next I was in this river place. I was drowning/swimming AND was being hunted for organ harvesting.(???)
This is such a morbid dream. But yeah, I guess I cried cos I died.
Today I shall blog about bicycles, or rather, an incident regarding bicycles.
When I was still in philly, me and G decided to bike around philly because there was the Schuykill River trail near Jan's place and our initial biking attempt at Burke-Gilman's was unsuccessful.
So Jan had already left for school, and she told me the day before that she would leave a note with the necessary details we needed along with the keys to the bicycle locks.
Here is where the story begins.
We spent half an hour searching around the house for the note and when I was about to give up (giving up is an euphemism), I saw it lying discreetly on the table (which was pretty occupied ;)). The keys to the bicycle locks were also there.
So yayness, and I happily proceeded to the back of the house to check out the locks and prepare to embark on our journey.
There are 3 bikes, 1 of which Jan uses and is easily identifiable because it is not the "pro" type. The other 2 bikes are identical, one of which G is supposed to use. And on each bike there are 2 bike locks (A & B).
So next we tried to unlock lock A and the key actually fit well, BUT we couldn't turn the lock. After 20 minutes of trying, both of us were feeling rather pissed because we were already late and behind time for our biking trip.
So being the smart me and queen of google (:P), I went up again to use jan's lappy and tried all means to find out how to unlock a Kryptonite lock. I found some youtube videos and pointed out to G that you're supposed to do this little push into the lock and its supposed to work.
We went down again and tried but it was unsuccessful. This time round, G was fuming mad and it was the first time I heard/seen him use a string of colourful language (I suppose compliments from the army).
So exasperated as I am, I told him I'd try one last time to see what I can get from the Internet, while he did his part too. G grudgingly agreed and I went upstairs. The Internet search wasn't helpful and I was prepared to change our day plan.
So what I was expecting when I came down the stairs was a hardworking G working at the locks. BUT guess what I saw!! Haha.. G eating his Ben n Jerrys.......
In the end we did get to bike because Jan finally called us back when her school ended, and that was when we knew that...... the key was supposed to fit lock B of bike 2. HAHAHAH.
I realise this story turned out to be longer than I anticipated, thank you for reading. :P
I'm really bored at home. But I'm glad the quarantine is almost over... Then again, what should I do...
Some of my friends have already started working, some are like me, waiting for work to start while others are still waiting for school to start...
I still feel like studying... I don't feel excited to work... It's kinda sad.
Oh well, on a brighter note, I have 2 weddings to attend for the rest of the year! One will be next saturday, and the other will be for one of my dearest thinkies' wedding. I just love the whole wedding/marriage theme, I think I'm a romantic at heart. Haha! :)
I have a thousand over pictures from the US, but this pretty much sums up some of my favourite moments.
=)
"For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it."
Some need gold and some need diamond rings Or a drug to take away the pain that living brings A promise of a better world to come When whatever here is done I don't need that sky of blue babe All I know's since I found you, I'm happy when I'm in your arms Happy, darling, come the dark Happy when I taste your kiss I'm happy in a love like this
There's a house upon a distant hill Where you can hear the laughter of children ring Guardian angels, they watch from above Guarding over the love that they bring But at night I feel the darkness near, I awake and I find you near I'm happy with you in my arms I'm happy with you in my heart Happy when I taste your kiss I'm happy in love like this
In a world of doubt and fear I wake at night and reach to find you near Lost in a dream, you caught me as I fell I want more than just a dream to tell
We're born in this world, darling, with few days and trouble never far behind Man and woman circle each other in a cage A cage that's been handed down the line Lost and running 'neath a million dead stars Tonight let's shed our skins and slip these bars Happy in each other's arms Happy, baby, come the dark Happy in each other's kiss Happy in a love like this Happy Happy
You know they say that you return to the same place only to realise that it is not the place that has changed but you who have changed.
The last time I've been to taiwan I was this eager and happy girl who went to a place she's never been before, I remember lying on the ocean bed, staring at the bluest sky (and also wondering if I will get another jellyfish sting in the middle of the ocean), I remember that sunset that took my breath away and I remember telling myself that it was a new beginning, going to university...
Now I have graduated (hopefully, haha) and this time round I've been there with my closest buddies in university, people who have been by my side from that fateful start... And now I return with Justin and Jasmine engaged, KS and Chi like newly weds, with the wedding photos...
Life is really amazing isn't it?
I must apologise to my dearest thinkboxers if I had been emo momo ahhaha... Despite being unusually quiet at some times, I did enjoy myself! :) I am sure you all did as well... Perhaps this may be the very last thinkbox trip we'll ever make but I'm pretty sure our friendship will remain strong enough to see us through the years ahead, until we see little KS/Chi and Justin/Jasmine babies running around, maybe dancing to Nobody or playing pranks on each other... Hehe just the thought makes me smile.. :)
I'm eating the noodles but it doesn't taste as good, I suppose it tastes better when we're gathered in that small and stuffy room.
All the best to those starting work soon - KS, Justin and Lunny... Dinny I hope you manage to study medicine and pursue your dreams, Bee I hope you find the answers to the questions that keep you awake at night and as for me, I hope I find a new direction in life, in this other new beginning...
Love ya all thinkies!! :)
P.S. Congrats to Justin and Jasmine... Its really nice to see you two being so happy together, have a blissful life ahead :) Congrats also to KS and Chi... Makes me wanna take wedding photos too haha!! :)
Let me take you to My secret place High above the earth Into out of space Only God knows where Only God knows how I will take you there Somehow
If this was the last day of your life What would you do to make things right? Cause this is the last day of your life Who you gonna call to make things right?
I love you Shine on
All that's beautiful is before your face Now you're in the heart of a secret place There's infinity in a grain of sand An eternity in the palm of your hand
If this was the last day of your life What would you do to make things right? Well this is the last day of your life Who you gonna call to make things right?
I love you Shine on Shine on
Denny: What's wrong? Iz: I wanna meet your mother. Denny: Iz.. Iz: I wanna go on a date with you, Denny. I wanna eat dinner at a restaurant and not look like a crazy person talking to myself. I wanna walk down the street with you and hold your hand. I wanna tell my friends about you. I want.. I want.. Denny: What? Iz: I want you alive. Denny: Are you breaking up with me Izzy Stevens? Iz: I think I am..
Derek's mom: Sweetheart, you see things in black and white. Meredith doesn't, you need a spoonful of that. You need her. She is the one.
Ok I am at sem 5 of 304. BUT I SO SO LOVE GREYS. I think this is one of the better episodes of season 5...
Sunday mornings were usually for sleeping in, getting up used to be hard, but these days, I realise I can go on with little sleep, no matter which day it is.
I have been alone for quite some time, was comfortable in my own skin, but then you came, totally unexpected, it took me by surprise.
I guess this is the beginning to many things,not sure how things will go on from here,but ok, hello, welcome to the world. =)
I have these 2 little black sponges on my earphone which goes missing very often. And every time that happens, I feel sad and disappointed, I kind of associate it with a bad omen, like I'm going to miss an opportunity, or something is still missing in my life.
The first time one of them went missing was when I was doing my internship. I remembered I had to decide on something, and when it went missing I had doubts about my initial decision. Then on a very, very normal day, I found the missing one sitting on the office floor! Perhaps out of desperate measures or lack of divine guidance, I took it as a sign from the higher powers.
Recently I thought I lost it again... I searched through my bag, everywhere, retraced my steps in school, but I just couldn't find it. But yesterday, it caught me by surprise again... It was trapped in my jacket, in my bag!
Dear higher power, are you trying to tell me anything? I am still lost.... sigh.
George(holding up bag): 130 ccs! 130 ccs of shiny, yellow urine! Callie: 130 ccs in how long? George: Four hours. Callie: No way! That is fantastic! (George and Callie start funky/funny dancing and then George kisses her)
I realise that life is complicated for everyone, not only me. And its ok. We all try our best to stay afloat, to get through life. Most of the times we do it well, alone, but sometimes we need a listening ear. So we share, and we try to understand each other. And when we do, it is easier to breathe, to let people in, and to live.
Why is it that we have to be better than others to feel good and special about ourselves? Remember that one time in PE class you just had to score a goal or run faster than someone else? Or that time you won the match against this strong team? Or the time you beat everyone else in class in a math exam? Remember the triumph you felt when you succeeded? And do you remember the sinking and unhappy feeling when you tried so hard but lost?
Why are we wired this way? I think it is quite sad, I am guilty of it. I think most of us are.
"You're told you've got to kiss a lot of frogs before you find a prince. But what they don't tell you is you're going to kiss a lot of princes as well, but they're not going to be your prince. You find someone great, but that doesn't mean they're great for you."
Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming Back to the rule and I hit the ground running Didn't make sense not to live for fun Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
So much to do so much to see So what's wrong with taking the back streets You'll never know if you don't go You'll never shine if you don't glow
Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play Hey now you're a Rock Star get the show on get paid And all that glitters is gold Only shooting stars break the mold
Somebody once asked could I spare some change for gas I need to get myself away from this place I said yep what a concept I could use a little fuel myself And we could all use a little change
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