All these time

I'm taking a break from studying FM. Well actually I'm just a little lazy. Hahaha.

I'm nearing the last lap of this extended race(3 weeks!). This time round, I am not as breathless as the last race, nor am I any happier when the race is over. I wonder if it is good or bad.

Everyone seems to have their plans in the holidays. I'll be missing a few people a lot too. My dearest roomie and neighbour are going to the US, uni friends are going for internships, while my bestie is going to Cambodia.

So I kinda feel lonely now. =p

All I know is that I have to get my driving license this hols.

On a side note,

Sometimes I really wonder what love is.

I saw the otter holding hands video, and I was pleasantly surprised. I didn't know that love could exist between animals. (I mean like, they always sleep around) Then some of my friends said, yes between some species of animals it could happen. And they do believe that it is possible.

Does it mean that they believe in love? Love seem to be so all encompassing for them.

I know there is the love between parents and children. But regarding about love between a boy and a girl, I have some insecurities.

Many years ago, the boy and the girl could have really really been in love, head over heels, sharing the same dreams and aspirations.

But after the "honeymoon" period, when the boy and girl finally gets married, have a family of their own, things seem to always change. This love isn't the same as the love they once had. Perhaps this love is made up partly of moral obligations and responsibility.

And then many years later, when the children of the boy and girl grows up, what is left of this love? Responsibility can take a back seat now. Is love merely the moral obligation left to the spouse?

It could be that many families around me seem to fall into that pattern that makes me feel this way. I know there are exceptions too. But they don't seem to happen very often.

Soooooo, at any point in time love isn't the same anymore, is it possible for the boy and girl to bade farewell to each other and turn their heads without looking back? And thereafter embark on a search for someone else who can give them what they seem to have lost progressively through the years?

Maybe I'm ignorant. Why do I see the world like this? Sometimes I wonder what is the true meaning of living...

Anyway, very ironically, this song is playing on my media player:

There must be a lesson for me to learn
If you don't trust in love,
you'll get nothing in return
Why should I be lonely,
don't tell me it's fine
I have my pride,
but I'd rather be with you tonight

Alright! Gotten that thing off my chest.

Everyone! Jiayou for our last paper. I shall go back to NPV, replacement chains...