Life audit : 2007

Well, its the end of the year, and time for some self reflections! Though I kind of dread this, I think it will be meaningful and worthwhile.

Studies
I shall focus on Yr 2 Sem 1, invariably as I have forgotten most of what went on in Yr 1 Sem 2. It has been a crazy sem, crazy tax, crazy accounting project... Many many nights staying up to battle the Zzz monster so I can get some tutorial questions or some assignments done.

It was trying, many times I doubted myself, felt like giving up. I think I kind of did, especially towards the exam period. Did not have enough time to finish revising, went into the exam hall for com law half hearted, therefore I believe my results for com law will be equally half as desirable.... But it is over, everything is set in stone, I can only leave these regrets where they are, in the past, and look forward.

The coming sem is going to be equally mad, with 6 modules, luckily ab228A ends rather early, and AB214 is non examinable. Nevertheless, I can forsee the madness about to come, with seniors telling me how much of a pain 201 and 202 can be, and all the projects... Projects are probably gonna be bad enough, but the worse thing is not getting into the same class as my fellow Tkbxs. It is really quite hard to fit everyone's schedules, as we have different preferences. All I can say is that my timetable is quite to my liking, apart from getting into a class with hardly any familiar faces... But I guess everything's in the mind, so I shall not worry, but welcome it with open arms, after all time moves on inexorably....

Friends
I have not been able to spend a lot of time with my closest friends, everyone is busy on their own. Oh well, at least there is December... :)

Family
This is the part where I feel guilty beyond words. I have not been a good daughter, sister to my family. I am often too caught up in my personal leisure, msning, watching heroes and what not.. And I think I have taken my family for granted. This I shall try very very hard not to do, as I know they are people who are not going to be around all the time. Many years later, I do not want to regret not "cherishing" them. What a difficult word to put into action...

Relationships
Got you there for a moment, didnt I? ; p Nahhhhhhh, right now I am still alone, and still enjoying singlehood. Many people are surprised I am still single, asking me questions about guys who went after me, things like that. I think the sorry truth is that, I am not an easy person to get along with. I expect a lot from myself, and to me, a relationship is a heavy commitment. I would expect no less what I give than what I receive. Which is difficult, especially when I know love doesnt work this way. There are going to be cases where one party is mostly at the receiving end, and the other one putting in most of the effort. Tough.

Driving
I decided to include this especially, because it became all to clear to me how expectations and disappointment are inverse functions. I had wanted to pass so so so badly, mainly because I wanted to end the terrible driving lessons - I so hate being put down constantly, wanted to drive..... But yes, I failed with FLYING colours, with 46 points! Hah. Oh well, you know what, I have put things into perspective, and whatever. Seriously, if I fail, I'll just take it again. Well of cos theres always the $$ factor. But well, driving does not deserve that much attention.

Hmmm right now I am twenty, byebye my teenage years! I still miss you a lot, still reminisce a lot, wishing too many a times when I was tired and helpless I could go back in time. So many things I have grown out of, so I hope I will find something new that I am passionate about.

Before the end of 2007, some things have to be left behind. :) Go dia!!